"Fair"

Lately I've been suffering from a "fairness" complex. For some reason, even though I've heard the phrase "Life's not fair" several times before, my mind can't compute why things in life are so unevenly distributed. Sadly, it doesn't so much stem from seeing all the poverty in the world, the homelessness, disease, death, etc. as it does from recently learning how much money the executives at my company make. It's a rediculously large sum, and I ask myself ... do they deserve it? Do they work harder than me? Will I ever find a break like that?

How sad and selfish am I to ask these questions when I am soooooooooo fortunate in all aspects of my life? I think materialism and pride are sins that totally lurk beneath the surface of most human hearts. I honestly didn't think either of them had much of a hold on me, but lately I've been proving myself wrong. I am completely and totally happy with where I'm at. My life is absolutely wonderful. I don't feel like I'm missing a thing, which I'm sure is more than a lot of millionaires can say ... So why do I feel like it's "unfair" for someone to make millions of dollars, even get paid for attending meetings, when I work hard, attend meetings for free (thank you very much) and do a good job yet make considerably less? I don't know the answer. But I'm reallllly working on not caring! :)

Interesting Quote

For the times we think we're "better" than other people or other countries:

"It is hard for us to admit we have a sin nature because we live in this system of checks and balances. If we get caught, we will be punished. But that doesn't make us good people; it only makes us subdued. Just think about the Congress and Senate and even the president. The genius of the American system is not freedom; the genius of the American system is checks and balances. Nobody gets all the power. Everybody is watching everybody else. It is as if the founding fathers knew, intrinsically, that the soul of man, unwatched, is perverse."

Blue Like Jazz by Donald Miller

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Throughout the day, a thought often comes my way and I think, "That would be a great idea for a blog" ... and sometimes, I start to formulate the beginning of a blog entry in my head as a result of something I saw or something someone said to me, and I tell myself to come back to it later when I have a chance to flesh it out on the computer.

But then I forget. And by the end of the day, my brain is fried and my thoughts are lost and my blog is empty. So here are some tidbits from "my life lately" ...

Crazy stuff going on at work (again) ... always keeping me on my toes, but I'm enjoying the various aspects of my position for the most part.

Prison Break and 24 are amazingly intriguing. I wonder if people are really as quick on their feet as Jack Bauer or Michael Scofield in those life-and-death situations?

Howie Mandel from Deal or No Deal drives me crazy whenever I watch that show. He could fit 3 times as many contestants into each episode if he would just get on with it already!

Easter's on its way. What does it mean to you? For me, it's all about the bunny. Ok, not really ... Despite my complaints, my imperfections, the way I'm so easily annoyed, my inability to love people no matter what, my inability to stand up for my convictions at times, etc etc etc, Jesus gave his life so that I don't have to get the eternal punishment I deserve. In light of that, does Hallmark's latest promotion - a big white stuffed rabbit that sings "Rockin' Robin" - seem just a wee bit rediculous to anyone else? Sorry Hallmark, I'm just not a fan.